Beatrix and I greeted each other and stepped into the car. She was a Leo woman around her thirties, with wavy blond hair and very shiny eyes. As we drove towards allala oasis there was some considarable electricity between us. What was known as allala oasis was in fact a pretty normal house in in very small village next to the moesel. That is, from the outside the inside was completely painted up with occult symbols, such as the OTO lamen, the tree of life and so on. We walked into the house and I met with Beatrix husband, Wolfgang. She told him ‘it was hot in the car’ as to give him a hint she liked me. Wolfgang seemed slightly upset and just nodded. He was an intellectual looking fellow with dark hair and glasses. As I had arrived early we decided to go for a beer. Soon it became sort of evident to me that Wolfgang and I didn’t get along too well. I talked about casteneda and he made some rather arrogant remarks about it that also seemed to upset Beatrix. He also talked about unter and ubermenschen which I find an annoying simplification if anything. Anyway we drank a beer and went back to see the other candidates for initiation arriving. Mostly a colored bunch but nice people. One of them was a dokter, a very intelligent guy. We started to play chess. I was out of shape since I play chess sporadically but I must have played about 20 games with this guy and not even a single second I had the slightest feeling I could stand a chance. That is pretty remarkable given that I used to be the chess champion of south holland. The guy’s play simply was almost infinitely superior to mine. Fascinating!

I was sort of nervous about this initiation thing since I had no idea what to expect. I had very unrealistic ideas about everything anyway. I thought I would go to some giant castle with thousands of people, think Kubrick here. I remember asking them why on earth initiations were always in the weekends and being quite surprised hearing they had jobs. That idea didn’t cross my mind for a second.

An initiation is a drama play they put you through in order to achieve certain effects. My minerval initiation was sort of funny. There was some point in it where I was telepatically communicating with the female officer on the throne before me, which was Beatrix. She answered some of my questions. We seemed quite involved with each other and must have stood like that for at least a minute. Her husband, who was the other officer in the ritual, disrupted our communication by shouting some silly dogmas through the room. That pissed me off so I told him mentally where he could stick it with his crap. He was silent after that and I continued with Bea.

After that they did a Gnostic Mass but that ritual is way too religious for me even though it did have some effects. I don’t like the religious setup and the bad poetry of Crowley. After all was done we went downstairs and Beatrix came ask me if I wanted to come with her, but I had promised the doktor we’d go for a walk and besides I felt it would be sort of rude to sleep with her since her husband obviously had some issues with it and I felt that was sort of a strange start for an entry into any kind of org. She was very dissapointed when I told her I’d go walking and I felt sorry I did, actually. I walked a few hours through the moesel area which is beautiful with the doktor guy having some interesting conversations. Then a few hours later I hitchhiked back home without having slept at all.

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